The Silence (Series)

Sitting here listening to the world outside pass me by

Wondering where I went wrong with you

I fought like Hell to keep you, but still you had to

Go

They say hindsight is 20/20, looking back I never had a clue

What I really meant to you

Stranded to ponder this solitude, I no longer fight the tears

I hate knowing I couldn’t stop you

A pain I have felt through the years

This silence speaks to me so loud

Playing my comfort and torture through memories

Unable to rationalize a way to deal with this, I will remain hiding in this shroud

My heart tears itself to pieces

This silence speaks to me so loud

Whispering that I give you the one thing you needed

Their voice, my voice, I'm lost in this crowd

Soft sweet whispers of your love superseded

Holding my heart, telling me to carry on

I can’t help but try to drink this away

How we ever came to be, I will never know

Why did it have to be you to leave this way

Such a slow and painful, the problems never would go

Now in this solitude I no longer fight the tears

Knowing you are gone hurts so bad

I am sorry you had to suffer so many years

I pray I was there when you needed me

I loved you unconditionally

I prayed for a miracle, one that

would have saved you

I can’t understand why it had to be you

So many times we talked about life

One that you knew you would never have

But you kept hope alive through every ounce of strife

I promised I wouldn’t let you go

So here I am still holding your hand even after you have turned cold

In this silence, You speak to me so loud

Holding me in your arms

Telling me that you’re so proud

In this silence, I can hear the angels singing

Happy that another child has come home

I am begging you to never forget me, and to always stay here with me

You tell me in your soft sweet voice

You will always be in my heart

You will be everywhere

This silence speaks

to me so loud.