The shivers
Are so deep inside
that no scarf, no jacket, no blanket,
no amount of hot air could ever reach them.
Making my soul tremble
And my bones ache.
Making what started as a pinhole,
A shadow on my heart,
begin to become a tear
right down and through
my stomach.
And it continues there,
My heart, beating...
Threatening.
To turn my insides inside out. Threatening.
To rise up.
Squeezing.
Squeezing. Every rib.
Until I feel each one of them Breaking.
Tearing.
Like steel hands around my neck.
Squeezing.
Suffocating.
The feeling in my fingertips is gone. My toes are ice cold
and I'm not sure how
I'm still on my feet.
I can't feel my legs anymore.
And with each beating,
more tearing,
And breaking.
More squeezing.
A new rush of weakness comes over my bones,
Like butterflies
In my belly.
But not the good ones.
And my knees buckle.
And my heart squeezes.
It aches.
And the shivering.
Submerged in the hottest water
my skin will stand.
Trying to reach the shivers.
But it won't.
I look down at my hands and
though I can't feel them anymore,
I see them. Shaking.
Trembling.
And again I feel my heart pull,
Crushing.
My eyes close tight.
Squeezing.
Sickness comes over
My whole body.
And, I wonder how long
A human being can feel
This way
Before dying.
And I can't reach
the shivers.
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