The Same Repeated Mistake

Look I know how this always goes.

I fall for you, you pretend not to notice.

You pretend that I’m not even there.

I get it, I understand.

I fall too hard, too fast, and for the wrong ones.

But I thought just maybe, you fell too.

I’m sorry I got butterflies when you held my hand.

I’m sorry my face turned red when you looked at me that night.

Look I know I messed up,

look I know I made the same mistake I always do.

I’m sorry I felt things more than you.

I wish I could feel nothing at all.

But I’m just not that cold.

I could drown the ocean with all of my tears but I would stop to apologize before I could let the damage be done.

I’m afraid of falling but I thought it would be safe this time.

I thought I’d be the only star in your eye.

But who could I fool, I’m not bright enough for you not to notice the rest of the sky.

I get it, I understand why.

I’m far from perfect I’m far from happy, I understand why you looked away.

I’m sorry I thought things could be different this time.

I looked in too deep and closed my eyes before jumping in.

But I should have kept my eyes open

But I should have kept my eyes open

But it gets hard to face the truth

That you’d never fall for me, the way I fell for you