I knock on your front door knowing how bad of an idea this is
fidgeting while I wait
maybe he didn’t hear me and I can just go back I think
then you open the door
you smile
and all my worries wash away
I sit on the bed helping you with your paper
I glance over to see if you’re paying attention to what I say
You’re staring at me, then you catch my eye
There’s that smile again
I look away quickly as if to try and hide how giddy I am
Thank god its dark in here because I can feel my cheeks getting red
You ask if it’s okay to put on some music
Sure, I say expecting some type of pop or rap
“When a Man Loves a Women” plays through the speaker
I smile and laugh a little to myself
You clearly remembered the type of music I like
You sit down next to me a little closer than before
you reach over me and grab the computer
lightly brushing your body up against mine
A slight chill runs through me
You lay down on the bed and motion for me to come closer
I slowly make my way over as if to seem not as eager as I felt
You ask for a massage. Classic.
and of course I happily say yes
I run my hands up and down your back
kneading as I go
Then you turn over and I start massaging your chest
I look up towards your face
There’s that smile again
I couldn’t hide my reaction this time
So you just smile even bigger
You gently pull at my shirt and brush your fingers along my sides as you take it off
You leave one hand on my face and place the other on my waist
Then pull me down on top of you
We talk for a while about life and our futures
You’re continually cracking jokes trying to get me to laugh
and I do
My head rests on on your chest
I can feel you breathing
Your hands ever so gently run up and down my back
Sending chills up my spine
You touch my face and kiss me
Your lips are so soft and warm
You pick me up and turn me over as if I weigh nothing
Your hands lightly and ever so gently slip off my pants
You look at me, smile, and then take me in your arms
And I, I just melt into them as if I was meant to be there all along
I am so nervous I’m shaking
I don’t know why,
I’ve done this before, we have done this before
But tonight was different
It was as if our bodies were one
moving synchronized in time
I kiss your neck, your breath quivers
I feel you pull me closer
With each breath we became something more than what we are
There wasn’t a thought running through my mind
It was an escape from everything
An escape from my own mind and body
You hold me tight but you eventually have to let go
I lay on the bed, body trembling
You kiss my forehead and ask me to stay
I do
I fall asleep in your arms, warm and safe
I wake up with your arms still around me
I turn and see your smiling face
I want to stay but I know I need to go
I slip out of bed without saying a word
What do you say to the man you have somehow fallen for
How can I tell you you’re the one I want when I already have another
In six weeks you’ll be gone
And me? I still be here
picking up the pieces of the mess I’ve made
putting my walls back up
with only the memories of the nights we spent alone
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