The Midnight Wish

I thought I’d take this moment to express a dear old wish

'twas lost not so long ago over one love and one kiss.

I know you’ll never know my cry, but know that you are missed.

If only you knew that at one point, you were my only bliss.

You held me when I needed to, you held me when I cried

you pulled me from the deepest waters in which I wanted to die.

You told me I would win one day

and that I didn’t believe

but little did I know I’d taste it the day I saw you leave.

Despite all of the love I had I told you my goodbye.

But little did I realize the gun I brought

that triggered that sorrowful tear

which slowly swelled up in your eye.

I broke you in a painful way, as did you to I.

My chest hurt deep and it damaged me

to a point beyond repair, but when I finally let you be

I brought along my hatred, and my grief.

I decided life was over, I had just enough

I showed that I was weak, when things got really tough.

I broke you in a painful way, but surely you know why?

You broke me in a painful way that made me want to die.

It was the day I lost my love, despite my saying goodbye

and on that unloved day my soul did surely cry.

I told you I was letting go and surely you never cared

that was the second time I lost you, the one I never shared.

Time went on like a ticking clock

I wanted nothing more to stop

but when I stood there at the edge

I decided I should not.

I ran away so quickly, then I fell upon my knees

all that pain swelled in my eyes stinging like some bees.

I shed a tear, or two, or three

and when those tears were shed my scars were all set free.

My eyes did hurt from weeping,

so much I didn’t see

the sun around the clouds peeping in at me.

The brightest rays engulfed me

an envelope so fair

I found a moment of peace despite all my despair.

I watched my life untangle

into something new

it became a beautiful flower in the spotlight of high noon.

And after a greater time had passed like a tree it grew,

my heart opened up again despite the things I knew.

My memories so painful,

But somehow I just knew

that maybe on another day I'd have my wish

I'd find a love like you.