The Human Touch Just Isn't Bliss Anymore

It was 4 in the morning when i got a message from him reading that he wasn't coming home for the night. I often wondered why there were gaps in the way he touched me. As if he was saving it for somebody else, i knew deep down that he was. He knew it too but convinced himself otherwise every time he tried to touch me. I am a woman of God, I am the Goddess of earth. On a surface level it doesn't take much life experience to understand and feel beyond the human touch and when it isn't for me.

What i have come to understand is that human touch just isn't bliss anymore.

Next morning i heard our door open quietly. My heart suddenly moved in a higher pulsation, i felt completely empty inside.

He said Good morning to me when he saw that i moved just a little closer to the wall. I almost felt like something was holding down the vibrations of my voice to not say a word. With such delay i said good morning back.

Without turning to look at him i can feel immense amounts of energy coming from his area, i knew he wanted to lay down to get some sleep. I chose to get up after this feeling and make myself a cup of coffee. I couldn't bare the thought of laying next to him after knowing who he was caressing earlier that morning. It made my stomach turn. Oh how i missed his touch so dearly.

But until then, i'll be here with my coffee while the god in me writes as i sit here watching her every move.