The Heartbreaker

Broken from stroking

Trying to let the mind settle in

Loving the ladies

Loving the vibes

But is this loving sin?

Toking it all in

Broke the heart of true love

One which was sent from above

She the virgin and me the habitual sinner

Always desiring to be on the inner

Sanctum of some woman's thighs

Whether they were strippers whores good gal bad girls always wanted more

Hid satyromaniacal tendencies

I feel unsatisfied and thus

Leave behind me I leave disappointment

Of ladies left unsatisfied

Because my heart and mind wasn't

Open enough to get past my heart walled defenses

Pain of past and present tenses

Forgetting how to let one in

Trying to open up again

Only to fold deeper within

Breaking hearts

Because I am already broken

But ego stroking trying to mend my heart

Preaching praying for love to start

See once upon a time

I was a whole man who dreamed a dream

That seemed like a sham

Of a future with just one

That can deal with the man that I am

Someone understanding

Creative and bold

Cuddly attractive

A pleasure to hold

Someone patient enough to deal with my eccentric personality and eclectic tastes

Someone who can help me pick up the pace

Of growth growing to be a better man

Ready for a full grown woman

Soul tested there is just a little crack beneath the flesh

Desire's twist mind

Always desiring the flesh

Bedded 100 women

Only going raw in three to enmesh

One pregnant one one I impregnated

One white one in a weed induced foursome orgy

I profess my heart to some

To not receive anything substantial back

So I hide inside my mind

Never letting anyone else inside

Hurting others and self in the same process

Breaking hearts breaks your own heart more

At least the broken hearted can move on

And seek love again

Whereas the heart breaker is broken from regret because something in him is not right

Desiring relationship that goes the distance and lengths of time

To build a life

Yet mine is more than half over

And though temptations make me bolder

I need that one to save me from myself

That will not accept a broken heart from me

Fight me for my heart

Engage me with emotional conversation

Appeal to the other side of my mind

Open my heart soul body and mind

To the question of you

Heal my broken heartbreaking heart

Build something special to impart

To an understanding of genuine love

Expressed reciprocally