The absence of her
is one of a bedroom
furnished with personal fantasies and splashes of fame
Pink florals
walls the color of your childhood dream
a beaded necklace hanging on the dresser knob
music spiraling in the air-space
when you poked in to say goodnight.
The floors ripped out
a gutted room from
each
grey
corner
the closet emptied of fashion-clad demons
leaving a trail of black glitter
you so reluctantly swept up with bitter tears
Each morning you place a blueberry donut on a single plate
and sit on the floor
surrounded by grey, spaced-out walls with no paint
because that was the rule-
no paint
no color
if there was no inhibitor
The broken fragments in the room resent you
Even the faded lipstick mark
on a shard of broken mirror
envelopes into a pout.
The blueberry donut would’ve been eaten up
crumbs trailing from the dresser to the bathroom sink
music would strum against the soft bristles of
powder brushes
the hums a gift you could sleep in
At lunch you return
“Just eat with me?”
But the walls never reply
can’t reply-
they have no color
so you take it in your room
but those walls and their color are not yours anymore
there Is no life next to them
the absence of her
The absence of her
each day
clinging onto its dust and unavoidable emptiness
is a death to me.
I pass the grey-toned room
there’s no way to avoid it’s presence.
However, I can’t help myself
(though I should know better by now)
from turning in and seeing if any color has returned
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Alivia Evans
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