The Darkness Inside
Someone understands, right?
DESPAIR, SORROW.
Lying in bed.
Darkness envelops
All things gone
Head exploding
Nothing and Everything
Wandering in this organ
Congested with dark thoughts
Wondering is it worth it
Knowing you have to
Nobody has ever done it
Not in this family
Setting an example is all it is
If she doesn’t think she can
Who will?
Her cousin? Baby sister?
Niece?
No one understands
Darkness envelops
Nothing can be heard
All this work, all these thoughts
Working hard, never accomplishing
Head under the blanket,
The night sky
During a new moon
Lungs trying their hardest
Maybe it is worth it
No more.
DESPAIR
SORROW
DARKNESS
This feeling of not being enough, is enough
Just quit, no one cares anyway
It’s not like they tell her
Is it enough to even do it?
They don’t care
Why should you?
GLOOM
MISERY
DEJECTION
Not worth it
This plague, this poison
It’s ruining everything for her
This infernal hole
Black abyss, pulling
Sucking her in deeper
Can’t she just do what she wants?
Cancel the thoughts, she has to
For her cousin,
Baby sister,
Beloved niece.
They need it
They will always need it
It lingers, those thoughts
They wait around for one weakness
One weak thought…
Moment.
In her life
It matters
They need it
It’s all for them
Or…
For herself.
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