As real as you, as real
your calm certainties,
the cities streets,
and garden squares,
the naked wraiths of indecision
are have gathered now to
test and mock and overrun
my heart's ambition.
You say “We must decide to be happy
and take it from here." My
bottom was wet through
on a shower-soaked
bench in Cavendish Square.
Love wasn't easily found,
for you or for me, this time or
any other, nor won
in a game of chance,
or granted by providence
as a reward for being
better than we were once.
We must take all that we can,
when we can; and
nothing is fair, and nothing
is free. My heart will pay you,
your heart will pay me.
At our time of life we have
earned the right to choose;
nor need age choose wisely
or well, each lover to lover,
for ourselves, and our other.
True! I am no longer bound
by the mad conviction
that I shall carry my gutter
into your bed, and soil your
linens with our lovemaking,
that I cannot deserve you,
or ever be happy with you.
I am myself only: an
incomplete uncertain woman,
both old and new,
gifted with unfettered joy
and borrowed blues
Lesley Storm, © October 2016
About the Creator
Lesley Størm
I am a retired teacher and librarian. I live in Edinburgh, Scotland.
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