The Best Choice of My Life

In 2014 I was drowning in my sorrows,

Trying to find happiness at the end of a bottle.

Thinking what if I don't wake up tomorrow,

Always saying fuck it, just another day to dottle.

Can't believe my thoughts were always so ill,

I just wanted something so I could feel,

Maybe the edge of a knife, barrel of a gun, or a simple a pill.

Nights of insomnia and so many tears,

Felt this way repeatedly for two years.

One day I dropped to my knees and began to pray

Yelling at God, begging him please,

"Send me someone to help me and set me free."

Then one week later,

The outcome couldn't have been greater.

An old ex and friend hit me up

And instantly I messaged back to say, "What's up?"

Four years off and on, five years of occasional talk,

When she'd text I'd smile and feel shocked.

The only person to ever worry about me,

Sometimes I thought it couldn't be,

It was just hard to believe.

Someone who cared.

Shit, no one else even dared.

We started talking 24/7,

Honestly, it felt like heaven.

Slowly I started to feel a difference,

And it definitely sparked an interest.

Went over every day before and after work,

I began feeling something so I'd flirt.

But what was this feeling?

I knew it was something worth dealing with.

I went for it and gave it a shot,

And who would've thought,

It would be the best damn choice of my life,

And give me a future wife.

A couple of months later

Her man came back and it hurt,

But I was determined to have her.

We would still hang out all night,

And when they'd fight,

To me, she'd come running

Although only to talk, she always looked stunning.

She became my best friend,

I knew there would never be an end.

She saved me and I'm always thankful,

Otherwise in my head would be a bullet hole.

I pulled the trigger but the gun jammed,

Then my phone beeped, it was her, I'll be damned.

We got to the point of needing to be with each other every day,

Then in the month of May,

What could I say

Our feelings were strong in the same way.

We would watch the sunrise,

See the beautiful orange fill the skies,

I would then look into her eyes

See true beauty and be mesmerized,

Feel all my pain drown out as it dies.

Later that month

She was finally mine, to love, to hold, to cherish,

All the time I prayed our love would never perish.

As a couple, we had our ups and downs,

But her heartbeat, her breathing, her voice,

God, I love those sounds.

After a short while I said, "I love you,"

Every time I said it, it was true.

I asked her to be my wife

Told her we'd never split, even in the afterlife.

We went to LA, made a wish for a baby,

We fell that in love, it was crazy.

About a year after,

We got news involving joy and laughter.

When she took the test,

The outcome was the best.

We were going to have a little addition to our family,

After nine months we began seeing this is reality,

In the month of January,

We finally got to meet our daughter,

She looked beautiful, just like her mother.

Only three months in and our family is going to grow bigger and stronger.

She is the best change in my life, and I couldn't be any happier with anyone else than I am with her. She is my literal everything, and I love the family I am blessed with.