The B in Bee

I never thought I would be on this end

Like a twisted fairytale with a tail way too bent

When did the rejected start rejecting?

It all started from a Hi to an Hello

From voice calls to video calls

I remember when we first spoke,

Chatting like a pair of wierdos

Adorable, when she lets her dimples run wild

Beautiful, when she does the face I like

Charmin , when she speaks about life

Elegant, when she dresses queen-like

Fearless, when It comes to life situations

Ultrahilarious, when discussing about wierd things

Very berserk, when she wants to say things to me

Wonderful, when it comes to restoring hope to me

Yearning, when it comes to knowledge of unknown things

Zealous, when it comes to being who she wants to be

What exactly is my heart trying to say?

Maybe the words are dumb enough to be voiced out

When she finally said how she felt, how I made her feel

I bolted to the nearest exit out of what? fear?

We were close in heart, far apart in distance

Never met in person, yet could describe her curves and edges

I wouldn't say I didn't feel the same for her too

In fact, I don't know because a lot of controversies circle me

I was afraid I was gonna hurt her, or lie to her unnecessarily

Afraid of the distance, but she didn't seem to mind

Pause, she considered all and yet poured out her mind

But yet, I still bolted and gave flimsy excuses

But is it an act of cowardice or an act of protection?

My intention was not to hurt her, never

I wasn't sure of the man I was, didn't want to cheat on her

She is on Earth and I was in Tartarus, battling and yet she wanted to join me

And now that I bolted away, she thinks I never felt anything for her

She thinks I made her look stupid for her confession

And then, she disappears into space, never to be heard from again

After my battle in the heart of Tartarus, my first quest was to search for her

Little did I know, her heart was closed, never to open again

I lost, I lost, I truly did lose

Something so beautiful, something so worth keeping

Suddenly she decided to visit me in my cabin and pay attention to me

We talked, with lots of fullstops

Not like in the earlier days, ruled by commas

With her every smile, with her very voice

I wished Aladdin could lend me his genie for just one wish

Rewind my mistake

She is the B in Bee

With a pointed edge forever there to prick me.

I wish I could have given her my all, but am just a little unsteady.