That's How Much I Loved You

The Unofficial Brief Tale of You and Me

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We were good friends for one year
That's how much I loved you

We both smiled when I told you I wasn
't dating that girl anymore
That's how much I loved you

We would spend time together at school and parties
That's how much I loved you

I would take care of you every time you started getting a bit drunk 
That's how much I loved you

We spent the night on a couch holding each other after a night out with our friends
That's how much I loved you

You said goodbye to me in the morning and from that moment I decided that I was going to let myself be vulnerable to you 
That's how much I loved you

I allowed my feelings for you to engulf me over the next few months
That's how much I loved you

Those few months weren't easy
That's how much I loved you

I tried to tell you how I felt but you didn't believe me
That's how much I loved you

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During a field trip, I picked up a beautiful flower that reminded me of you
That's how much I loved you

I kept it nicely tucked away in my jacket pocket all day, trying not to crumple it
That's how much I loved you

That night during the end of the school year party I asked you to come with me to a classroom
That's how much I loved you

I gave you the flower and told you it was a symbol of how serious I was whenever I told you how I felt about you
That's how much I loved you

You were gorgeous that night, with those braids in your hair
That's how much I loved you

One day I cooked lunch for us and we had a picnic
That's how much I loved you

We laughed so much throughout that unforgettable afternoon
That's how much I loved you  

I was crazy about you and you didn't seem to feel the same
That's how much I loved you

We stopped talking
That's how much I loved you

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I spent all Summer thinking about you
That's how much I loved you

I saw you in every beach, in every party, in every dream
That's how much I loved you

A girl wanted me, but I still didn't feel free from you
That's how much I loved you

I spent all Summer thinking about us
That's how much I loved you

When classes started you showed up at a party, but I could see you were trying to avoid me
That's how much I loved you

That night someone asked me what was wrong with me and I said "the girl of my dreams is right there, and I am just here"
That's how much I loved you

One day you tried to reach out to me, but I didn't want to keep getting hurt
That's how much I loved you

Another day you were in a hurry but we talked for hours
That's how much I loved you

I pushed you away after a few good days
That's how much I loved you

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I regretted that things didn't work out the way I knew they could have
That's how much I loved you

My friends made me realise that I was the one who pushed you away, in the end
That's how much I loved you

I got in touch with you and apologized for not explaining how I was feeling after everything
That's how much I loved you

We met and you explained how you had been hurt in the past and how much the way you felt about me scared you
That's how much I loved you

You were right in front of me and I wanted to kiss you so bad
That's how much I loved you

In that moment I got scared of ever hurting you
That's how much I loved you

I thought back to that day a year earlier when I allowed myself to completely fall for you
That's how much I loved you

I kissed you
That's how much I loved you

You kissed me back
That's how much you loved me

Three years later I have a huge smile on my face while I'm writing all this with 1500 miles and three countries between us
And that's how much I love you.

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