My mind is filled with broken promises.
Pretty broken things.
Like clocks that don’t tick tock.
I think there might even be a couple of wedding rings.
I think they belong to my mom and dad.
I remember that you wanted yours to have sapphire in it.
The bigger the better.
You wanted a rock.
I will always want to give it to you.
I can’t remember what diamond shape your favorite was, or which one you disliked.
It’s either circular or square.
I guess I’ll never know, now.
Maybe one day I’ll remember, but I doubt that will ever happen.
You used to leave me notes on my car.
You’d tuck them under my windshield wipers, in between classes.
You called me a pussy in one of them.
You found it a lot funnier than I did.
In another, you told me how much you love me.
I don’t think I have ever smiled that big.
I kept it hanging on my wall for months.
I took it down a few weeks ago and ripped it to shreds.
I couldn’t stand the thought of the look on my face as I read it.
Or the way that you used to feel about me.
Or seeing my name written in your cursive handwriting on the front.
I found a picture of you on my phone.
The only one that I forgot to delete.
I don’t have the heart to get rid of it now.
It might be the only one I’ll ever have again.
I’ll never look at it again.
I’m sorry that I kept it.
My chest always hurts.
It hurts when I think about what you do to him, with that body.
The body that way too many are familiar with.
My head is always spinning.
I can feel the nightmares coming to get me.
I think that it’s time to go.
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