Tears Can Burn

i hold onto things,

grasping,

too scared to let go

even when things

turn red and black,

the pain is worth

everything

i can’t lose myself

not yet

tell me you care

tell me you’ll stay

you could tell me

about the world

but i already know

that you’ll never

be the same

you didn’t care

about the stars

and how they aligned

because you promised

to rearrange them

and to connect

our broken hearts

back together

he’s to blame

for those endless thoughts

and torn down realities

for building up these

cracked through walls

and creating all

these possibilities

but darling that’s

the way things work..

you lose everything

in exchange for his love.

i was told

that love

can drown you

deeper than

any ocean can

but i was never a

believer in

happy endings

so i dove in

despite not being

able to breathe

eyes closed

darkness engulfs

but now

it’s something

that brings comfort

but for all

the wrong reasons

because all i can see

are the fading memories

where the stars

aligned just right.

is it wrong for me

to pretend

there’s light

amongst the dark

when an empty void

is all there is to it?

i can’t help but

try to fill it in

with make believe

but i’m incomplete and

i don’t know what to do

so don’t go telling me

that it’s pointless

when it’s all i have left.

can you feel

the pain of

yesterday’s promise,

the emptiness

of tomorrow’s lies

or have you forgotten?

but unlike you,

i’m flawed

i’m stuck in the past

unable to be set free

from my own

unwanted thoughts.

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