A compulsion to write this
The grief fills me and I need to make space
Write it away
Push out the pain and let light back in
Is it too soon to move on?
I feel guilty for wanting to, when so many canno...
I'd never thought about that day
The day you would leave and go away
Thought I wouldn't survive, wouldn't endure
The pain would be too much that my heart couldn't take it anymore
It would shatter into...
It felt as if my heart had gotten swollen and it was ready to explode, From feeling angry to hurt to being depressed I learned to move on and cope with it, I couldn’t do much
This unexplainable feelin...
My soul is defined by death in pieces
It hurts to love myself... how can I love another?
I wish I could erase your pain
I wish you hated me with feverish scorn
I want you to beguile me and ridicule me...
You pull me in close
kissing the back of my ear
running your fingers down my neck, chest, stomach, thighs
hearing your breathing get heavier
the faint rhythm of your heartbeat
your beard brushing up a...
I remember when we were younger,
We were always afraid of getting older...
Moving to different cities, chasing different dreams.
We always prayed that we would be together,
I wanted to be the one to h...
Unfortunately, I was always dreaming about flowers and happy moments.
After I met you I dream about your eyes with the color of the night, shining like the stars.
The forest is the way to you, filled ...
I wanted you to teach me that red isn't just a colour with primary details. I wanted you to teach me the that you can reverse the roles to get a vivid purple. But all you taught me is that teaching me...
The world got a little bit quieter And my mind got a little bit louder Who knows why? Who knows why? But I did pray that If everything was stripped away
Even then Even then I'd still praise you The world got a little bit quieter And my mind got a little bit louder Who knows why? Who knows why?
But I did pray that If everything was stripped away Even then Even then I'd still praise you So I'll keep singing from this pit of mine
So I'll keep singing through this prison time So I'll keep praising t...
It was your birthday and I wanted to surprise you,
even though I thought I was doing everything right it all fell through. You had just gotten out of your evening college class, and I remembered tryin...
It still feels like a dream
Something that I will perhaps still wake up from
There is fog in my eyes I don't see clearly
There is something I always wanted desperately
They always said that I need to ...
Someone else has been touching you.
I can trace her fingertips down your back.
I can smell her in your clothes.
In your hair. It's all around you.
You can't shake her.
You can't wash this one off.
/ Not being good enough / I should be over it right? That’s what you keep saying, “it’s been 3 months,”
yes it’s been 3 months and it still breaks my heart at the thought of it. Having to re-trust and...
Your game of hot and cold
leaves me tired and numb
I know this sunken feeling in my stomach
as I’ve felt it many times before
swept up in an idyllic day dream with you
until I am feeling comfortable
I liked myself more
before I met people like you
chasing me with sweet words
which tug on this vulnerable string
pulling down the curtain I’ve made
until you can see everything
in its rawest existence...
my mom used to say
that people never change
and i never believed it.
i always saw the good in people who
when the not good people continued
to show me their
true colours i knew
she was r...
I guess I'm just tired of fighting for something that used to come so naturally. I'm tired of dancing alone in the rain.
I'm tired of all the old cliches. I'm looking for something to freshen up my li...