Stranger to My Skin (Pt. 1)
Rebirth of Something Strange
Break free from this overrated syndrome
The remedy I've been is not the remedy I need
Broken down internally from a past life's karma
A debt I know for certain that has been paid
Chakra system charged and already realigned
Reimagined for a taking of tomorrow's renewal
Far to much energy goes towards waste; fear
Self affliction fuels more self depreciation
I've chosen to let go of some ghostly baggage
Leaving it in the lost and found without claim
To see beyond the thoughts that hollow me out
And fill the void within this something saved
A mending of air and water that's forth coming
Time being a weapon in a war for better health
Simply the throw back to my mental melodies
Flowing free throughout that old electric feel
Transparent in density while still hard in force
Sweet dreams are made of these feelings of ill
There isn't anything as real as one's perception
So a shift in default setting is definitely in order
One pep talk from higher self; a forwarded walk
Tripping is part of learning how to pick up
All that's done can't be undone nor overwrote
This is the curse of our present time being now
Only more time not yet spent by your present
Never being above this moment in time here
I'll find solid ground and stand up as I should
Not allowing the night's dark to consume me
For I have become something strange entirely
Stranger to my skin, a loose but comfortable fit
In the effort over forgetting a sickly melancholy
This depression I've stayed in since early youth
Days back when all I wanted to do was swing
Recess time could never come soon enough
For my heart used that swing set to set me free
To sing whatever songs my mind could think of
I build on putting gained experience into action
To be swift in my movement and foresight
Like a next level player having fine tuned skills
Graceful in approach yet fierce in the delivery
Unfamiliar; foreign is the tomorrow sun rise
As it grants permission for more unknowing
Yielding royals for a forging of something pure
Something more instinctively true to its' nature
Bearing the likeness in a creature-esk beauty
Only remembered for a long lasting impression
Then labeled as is for another's understanding
Never truly being seen for the creature within
Until given the chance to reveal his true form
Before all can become a working utilized reality
I'll have to stick to my word and take the reigns
Get off the couch and turn off the television
Step out of my comfort zone and face today
Come out of myself enough to be more vocal
Allow the freedom to release myself from guilt
To relinquish this outdated idea of self worth
And embrace the clean slate of a renewal felt
All this takes time for mastery, the art of usage
Having a lack of patience as I hate any waiting
Temperance will be what gets me through this
That and an overall increase in self motivation
For I'd rather lay in my misery instead of move
As some days carries more weight than before
Still no excuse when it comes to my survival
A need to replace this mind with a new look
So now I work towards transformation in truths
A fire of soul which embodies strength and virtue
Bright in shine, as like the star our sun truly is
Seen from far galaxies as a small-scale twinkle
Not sure in the size exact for the distance
Sharing a similar view; how we see their suns
Wondering if still emitting life light years away
Or if it's just a burned out after glow of history
This just might be another daydream dreamt
Over thought imaginaries which softly breathe
Subconscious leakage, seeming in its mortality
A belief in make shift schemes of pretend
The overdosing of wishful thinking in a wanting
My loss of grip on what has proof of existence
Giving power to things that lack real live touch
Maybe this time it'll have a more solid base
Well, whatever may come is what I make of it
My future is mine to mold; mine to draw design
As I shed this layer of powerlessness I've worn
Finally conquer these insecurities that paralyze
Out grow this fossilized victimization I've been
Give form to this force that has only frenzied
Take control over the meaning behind human
And become the first version of this something strange
About the Creator
Brent Horling
I'm a free spirit, who is usually lost in free thought. As life goes on and I age closer to my death, I've come to realize that these free thoughts seem to be all I truly have. And that's okay.
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