Stop Believing

Why can’t I change the path

That’s has consumed me?

Why can’t I change the outcome

That the future holds for me?

I change my steps

On this bumpy road,

I bear the weight

Of this heavy load,

I raise my kids

To live their best,

Yet I’m never enough

I can’t pass this test.

Life has consumed all I loved.

Trapped in a loop I can not break.

Find love and live.

Then blink and find a mistake.

It’s not them though.

I’m the cause for this dismay.

I do what I can.

But they never stay.

I know I’m not perfect,

And I may just be cursed.

But what have I done

To live in this verse.

Why can’t I shake it,

This loop in my life?

Why must I continue,

To live in a strife?

Though I’m still flawed,

I truly love this one.

I don't want him to go.

I don’t want him to run.

Why must I be this way,

With no one to love me?

Why am I flawed?

Why can’t I just be?

I love him.

But there he is leaving.

Again I have failed.

Maybe I should stop believing.