Stay Strong

How it feels to love anotherWho clearly does not love you,Does far more mental damageThan any hurricane can do.

I trusted you, believed you,Every time I searched your eyes.In the end, I'm just another hole,Who fell for all your lies.

My heart would skip its many beats,Sink into the ghost of my former self.My heart would awaken my sleepy soulAnd take her off the dusty shelf.

But now whenever I think of you,I want to buckle over and cry.I want the world to go away,I want the world to die.

I remember where I met you,Exactly how, precisely when.I looked at your nervous smile andMy life restored, refreshed again.

Now when I think back to you,The bluest skies turn gray.I have to build my walls again,Reinforce each brick I lay.

I have to keep reminding myself,"It's a bad day, not a bad life."Who am I to lay back and takeEach blow from mental strife?

He left me and that's all his fault,Perhaps part of it was mine.The time is now to be my strongest;My wounds will heal in time.

I'll build my tower higher upSo I can be safe from all the pain.Maybe a drawbridge over a mote,For when I'm ready to love again.