Solace of My Solitude
For a Past that Has Been Worth Living
Tears on my soul
solace of my solitude.
Yet I like it.
Even if it hurts. Or maybe because it hurts.
And I need it.
I need to remember who I was
and how things were:
How you used to smile at me
And laugh, laugh until sunrise.
I need my memory
To see our happiness
Caught between the night
As we lay by the fire.
It was what it was
And it is what it is.
I can't rewind it
Yet the wind brings it back
As my spirit grows old.
The first emotion
Has now been felt more than once
And does not possess the same force and clarity.
Hence, your smile is trapped in time
and my soul disrupted
as an old tree long left unwatered.
My lungs are now empty
for the hours spent screaming
at Time, leaving me behind.
I touch the smoke around me
coloured by the purple sunset
when us, running in the fields
as the rain finds his way,
used to love life
more than ourselves.
We were young,
Unconscious minds led by infinite desire
of making our existence unique.
But now, led by experience,
we're only memories
and memories we'll be
until the we drown in the night
waiting for the same feeling
that we once felt with such passion.
Tell me, my old self, about the last time
You were sincere to your being
and you promptly looked away
As you realised your fate.
You grow up once and once only.
but now let me go back
To the fire and the fields
That changed me ever since
I saw your eyes loving me
As if I was the only human being around.
Let me feel the pain
Let me burst out in tears
But let me remember only once more
That life is worth living
Because the next sunset
Will not be as the last one you loved.
About the Creator
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I'm on my wave to make my words count
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