So Far Away

Although I am

Surrounded by

Thousands of people,

I feel that I stand alone.

They scream your names,

But I am completely silent.

I know not the words to say.

I cannot form a coherent sentence.

I can't think straight because

It's you,

Standing there,

So close but so far.

My eyes are wide,

My throat is dry,

And my heart

Beats out of my chest.

I hear your voice and

My heart starts breaking

But being glued together

At the same time.

You're there,

Picking up pieces of my heart,

Despite their jagged edges,

Sharp like shattered glass.

Your hands grab ahold

Of the shards I've left behind.

And I cannot breathe,

Though the air around me has cleared.

They are loud,

Yet I stay silent,

I remain the stillness in a mass

Of endlessly moving bodies.

I wouldn't dare move,

I can't trust in my legs.

I know they wouldn't be able

To keep me steady on my feet.

I stare past them,

My eyes locked on

The ones that keep me going,

My eyes locked on you.

I admire you,

But only from afar

Because afar

Is as close as I can get.

The ones who were there

When no one else was,

Who put a smile on my face

When tears were spilling from my eyes,

Standing there,

Right in front of my eyes,

Making me feel the things

That no one else can.

I reach out to touch

Your hands,

Or a single fingertip,

or anything I can reach.

But sadly,

Even then,

Empty space

Is all that I am able to touch.

You glance at me,

But you do not see me.

You do not sing to me,

But to those around me.

You do not know my name.

You do not know my face.

But you have given me hope,

And you have kept me here.

Thank you for always being

The smile that breaks through

Even though it seems like

All I have left is a frown.

I wish I could thank you,

Thank you in person,

But I can accept that

I may never have the opportunity.

I will not complain.

I will not be upset.

I will not get angry.

I will not cry.

But what I will do

Is remain strong

And I will do it

For you.

Because to you, I am

So close.

Even though, to me, you are

So far.