Madder Still Dear Alice
Madder than the hatter she seems to be of late.
But, she can go much more madder still.
Yes, yes.
Just wait and see. Just wait and see.
She hides it all under lock and key,
Don’t you see? Don’t you see?
Away behind her door.
Never to be opened by anyone but she.
For when things get bad, she just might
Turn the key. Turn the key.
And then she will be back in her Wonderland,
For all to see. For all to see.
Back down the rabbit hole where she
Ought to be. Ought to be.
The only place safe for she
To become madder than she.
For the roses bleed redder here;
And the hearts crumble beyond repair.
For the flowers sing in melodies;
And the twins turn her head in riddles so.
For the only one not mad here,
Is really the Hatter and the Cheshire.
For she is the hatter, not He.
And it is she who is much more madder still to be.
6.2.2018
Lost Control Fell Apart
I lost control I don’t know when
It all fell apart I don’t remember when
I’ve lost myself to the demons that play inside of me
Ripping and clawing away at me
Shredding at me any way they can
Tearing apart my hopes.
I lost control I don’t know when
It all fell apart I don’t remember when
Was it recent with life and work?
Was it as I fell deeper in the darkness
Like when Alice fell down the rabbit hole?
The only difference is this:
Alice came back.
I lost control I don’t know when
It all fell apart I don’t remember when
I’ve gazed at the Cheshire’s grin a little too long
That I’ve become madder than the hatter still.
I lost control I don’t know when
It all fell apart I don’t remember when
Was it years ago?
Losing the first house, and moving everywhere
Possibly imaginable?
Just how many times did we move?
Just to pack up and move again?
I lost control I don’t know when
It all fell apart I don’t remember when
Was it when we lost everything else?
When we got the bed bugs?
And I sat in the middle of the room
Realizing it was just all so hopeless right then and there?
All hopes and dreams gone in a blink.
I lost control I don’t know when
It all fell apart I don’t remember when
Was it when it all came crashing down
Like Alice when she grew larger than the house?
When it all dissolved into a numbing pain
When Kevin died?
Taken by his own hand, no warning, no signs.
I lost control I don’t know when
It all fell apart I don’t remember when
Down deep into the rabbit hole I sank
I still seem to sink even to this day.
Only to find temporary relief from my brain.
The demons are still there,
But I’ve long since learnt how to play along.
I lost control I don’t know when
It all fell apart I don’t remember when
I’ve lost myself to unknown and unremembered dreams
To the point I wish not to sleep anymore.
For all they are,
Are demons of shadows tormenting me so.
Ripping the very fiber of my being all the more.
I lost control I don’t know when
It all fell apart I don’t remember when
I seem to sleep when awake at times.
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I ask the questions others are too afraid to ask.
I speak truths where other's won't dare to.
I watch from afar it seems
But right in the middle of it all.
I observe and I dare speak finally
When I feel the need to arise
And I shock others when I dare to do so.
Like I dared to have thought
Like I dared to speak truths
I dare to know
To see the world as it is
I call them out at times
When I should bite my tongue.
But I still feel detached from it all.
Even now,
As I stand here speaking my words
Writing my muses will to be life.
I feel apart from it all
From them all
Like I don't belong here
I never belonged here
Or anywhere.
I am Alice,
Locked away in my brain
Never allowed out.
Never allowed free
To speak my words of truth
To be believed.
6.3.2018
About the Creator
Sky Boivin
Indie author/ artist from Massachusetts. Love of nature, reading, family and friends. poetry lover and nature photographer. can find most of my writings as physical book form/ digi on amazon and all ebook sites
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