“Shifting”
Every stage in life brings change...every change shifts you.
Longing for change
what change…not sure
A short time ago, contentment was in arm’s reach
Now the harder I try, the further away it runs
Is this a new excursion? Should I beware?
Or are desires pushing their way through, fighting after being held down inside for so long?
Struggling, grappling with the thought of the forbidden “unexplored territory”
Am I living for the surety of others, afraid to find my way?
Knowing as I do that my love for the current and all that it entails, won’t be ripped from me, yanked from me like highly anticipated love letters
No
I will indefinitely love you, life
Just in a different perspective, with a new outlook
Priorities change, desires, contentment, and happiness
Happiness? That’s a thought
Still happy, I digress to say that the joy of day to day life is taken away
Looking around, wondering, “Is there change?”
Should there be? Will there be? Is the change mine to initiate?
Surely I hope, as my heart yearns for newness
New surroundings, new people, new experiences
Dare I say, New me?
Is presumptuous my name? Am I wanting it all too quickly? Am I desiring what is not rightfully mine, and what will never be?
Perhaps I am a victim of what is taken in through the holes on my face?
Am I longing only for what I see others enjoying around me?
Somewhat, I’m sure
All is natural, all has been dreamed up in times past
What I feel then, is really mine…it’s from me
The question now shall be…
How do I acquire what is rightfully mine to take?
How do I shake these feelings of guilt for wanting what is natural?
Hesitation, why do you have such a firm hold on me?
Do you want to deem me miserable? Is this a challenge?
Alas! One that shall be answered
Resolutions for plans ahead
You will not get me down
I’ve cast you out!
Taking hold of you by the neck and shaking you off
My happiness, my joy, will not be robbed
I keep them on me like a warm sweater in winter, realizing that happiness doesn’t leave when change arrives
It remains, shifting focus, but always being alive
Realizing change can be for the better
Realizing I can stop change never
*AshleiNichole*
About the Creator
Ashlei Nichole
¡Hola Hola! My name is Ashlei. I’m an eager twenty three year old writer who loves the self expression that is poetry. However, I’m not limited to poetry.
I. LOVE. WRITING. PERIOD.
Give me your thoughts and criticisms. Vamonos!
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