I've spent a while trying not to
fall for anyone else.
My ex used to tell me
That
I was a lot
And no one could handle my
Anxiety driven self.
To be fair
I am a lot
He actually told the truth
But now I live in constant fear.
And it's hard to overcome
What my gut says to do.
See I fall so fast and no one has ever placed their arms out to catch me.
I find that
They never last long enough to catch me so
I crash.
And I usually just land.
Slowly creating
Little lines
In my soft
Porcelain skin.
So when I start to like someone.
My gut says to run, to
Go a different way .
'Cause I've spend a good
Bit of my life
Just
Watching other people walk away.
I think to myself:
So maybe I should leave
Before I get to be
Too much for you.
Before you start to believe.
That I'm too much to handle
To easy to let go.
Either way it hurts
When you fall
So maybe I should just hide.
And not jump down at all.
Pretend to be someone else.
Without a heart in my chest.
Just
Leave me alone
If you believe it's for the best.
I fear that if I fall,
I'll be shattered into pieces
Scattered on the ground.
I'll be left empty cause they
Knocked my half full glass down.
Fear is what makes me cry
Soaking into my pillow.
My anxiety tells me to run away
Cause no one will be there to catch me.
Alone alone alone
I'll live
But at least I won't get broken.
-shattered
About the Creator
Serrena Gragg
Welcome to my poetry page. This is where I will leave pieces of me for those who care to read my thoughts.
More from me at
https://linktr.ee/Serrenathedead
xoxo,
S.g
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