Shades of Blue

see i don't want to be your shades of blue

i want to be the whole rainbow

each color making you feel like the sun is exploding inside of you

feelings of indescribable bliss, when we kiss

see you lost feelings but don't worry i’m still healing and with each color comes a new found strength

i'm no longer feeling stressed

but i digress

last night i sat with a friend, i just really needed to clear my head and i did

suddenly after many tears i saw the brightest yellow i’ve seen in years and when it finally appeared - i left at peace not in pieces

i remember one night we had a really bad fight

we just weren’t thinking right

said some things that shouldn’t have been said

all i saw was a blinding red

and as i spill my ink on these pages

i see none of those fights really mattered

big large splatters fall

maybe i didn’t even know you at all

i was willing to give it a try

but you had already made up your mind

and fast forward a couple days

i swear i could feel you slipping away

and every time i saw you with her

i could hardly breathe like i was drowning in the sea

and you purposely chose not to save me

you saw me and you’d look away

engulfed by the big green waves of envy

i asked myself time after time

why i made someone my home

now i just wonder alone

i wonder will you pick up the phone if i call…?

and

i’ve witnessed the perfect sunset

all the right mixes of orange and purples

and how the clouds danced seamlessly creating the most magical moment but something was missing

that's when it hit me

i’ve always been in-love with the beauty in the sky

it’s ability to shift from a sunny sun rise to a heartbreaking lighting storm

you happened to embody just that in its most imperfectly perfect form

but the shifts in the skies could never compare to the light in your eyes

i don't want to be your shades of blue.