Set Me Free
Before I came out to my grandparents about who I really am.
Waiting,
Listening while you speak
Waiting for my turn to talk.
Thinking about what to say
Thinking of how to say them.
Nervous doesn't even cut it
With the way that I'm feeling
Anxiety is killing me
Filling me inside
Eating me from the inside out
Biting my lip
Too scared to talk
Afraid of the outcome
Afraid of the back lash.
Too scared to lose my family
Too scared they'll run away
Or try to "fix" me.
I have to tell you before I explode.
I need you to acknowledge me.
Please look at me and listen
Please help save me from myself.
I need you to know who I am
I need you to understand.
I want you to know me
I want you to love who I really am.
I don't want to hide from you
You always help me
Please help me now.
Please help me get this out
And help me feel loved.
I want you to accept me as I am
As I really am.
Please pay attention
Please see the signs that I'm trying to talk
Let me open up to you
Let me tell you about me
I feel lost and scared
Let me be free
About the Creator
Amber Schmucker
I have been writing since I was 14 and it has mostly been poetry and it has always been about what I have been feeling about the things that I have gone through or am going through. I hope you can appreciate it and empathize with it too.
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