I often think to myself I am happy with what I've become or what I am
If I could be anywhere...it would be far from society
Without judgement, complaints, the day to day routines and just me
I feel as though I'm not myself anymore
I feel unattractive, and more depressed than I was as a child
Today I've come to realize I am still that child hiding behind my fears and insecurities
I know many may believe that I am just in my own thoughts...but how can I when I desire for everyone to be fond of me, want me, and love me
I can't smile as though I am happy...I'm not
I have a permanent scar that no one sees thoughts that no one should hear
I look for a flaw in myself, every single time I make a mistake, get attached to someone or think negatively
I think to myself who can bare to be with me when I'm repulsed with myself
I don't want to have children because I can barely take care of myself mentally
Would the pressure be too much
I don't want to be married because I don't want to end up like my mother...unhappy and unwanted with my life
Today is the day I cry and look at myself...and wonder who are you..what are you.
About the Creator
Nazthekid
I’m just here expressing my thoughts and writing some dope ass poems!
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