Self Care, Self Love

I've never been the type of person to just focus on meFor once in my life that's all I want to do

And it's thrilling and scary at the same time

I am going through so many emotions and shedding so many layers

Every day I wake up I feel brighter than ever

And then I have the days where I just don't know what I'm doing

Or I'm just trying to do so many things at once

I'm trying to find myself you see

I noticed I left a piece of me with everyone I met

Or I took a piece of them with me..

I became who I am today because of the people in my life...

And I don't like who I became

I had goals with No ambition

No motivation

I let others control my happiness

And I'm done..

It's time for me to be selfish and do things for myself for onceMy focus is now centered on meWhat am I waiting for?Why am I still scared?

Just push forward, I say to myself

Don't be a lazy B****

Do new things

Finish writing (haha)

I'm happy with my life now

There was a time when post partum depression took over

But I started to look to myself

listening to

gurus

and entrepreneurs

And getting lost once again...

I was trying to find myself and I got lost trying to be someone I wasn't AGAIN

I'm not going to quit

I'm determined to get where I want to go

I'm determined to improve myself in the things I'm good at

Then later, I will focus on things that I'm not

I was pulling my energy and focus on something I have no clue on

And it dragged me down

I like to write, I really do... But you see it's been so long since I've actually written anything

And my foolish self limited my capability by not putting that 100 percent

By not believing in myself

So I'm sorry if my writing is a tad sloppyMy mind is really all over the place

But with perseverance and with an open mindset I will change how I amBecause I know I can do better I'm not worthlessI'm not useless

I have the potential to be so much more than I am todayAnd I will start with the one thing I love most

I've learned a few things about myself during this growth of self lovePatienceUnderstandingCompassionLoveIt's not easy this journey of self You can easily get lost and relapse into the old you But I pushed myself

I was hard on myself because I didn't see a change I didn't realize how small some changes are and completely ignored those small changes

But let me tell youThose small changes mean EVERYTHING

It takes a lot to change old habits And I'm grateful for this everlasting journey of this lifemy life where I am the star and I can get where I want tooAs long as I work and put my mind too it Life's too short to be filled with worries and sorrow

"This too shall pass"

Where am I going with this?Oh yes, self loveLove yourself, find your happinessTalk to yourself, get to know yourself

Because self love is so important we forget about ourselves We try to please others, do stuff for others But we never have time for ourselves It's okay to love yourself, and treat yourself goodWho else will if you don't?

And don't get discouragedIt's going to be hard

"Nobody said it was easy" Coldplay - "The Scientist"

I love that songPower through life and be determined to get where you want to goKnow you are worthyKnow you are lovedKnow you are capable

Life is filled with challenges and obstaclesIt's up to you on how you endure them