Searching

Missing a part of me

That should have been here

It was all for the best

Messages never made clear.

Dying a little each time

Thinking of moments never shared

Picturing what you would have looked like

Painfully..still...no one cares...

Trying to dismiss the thoughts

Of leaving it all,

Of unclouding my mind,

I welcomed the fall.

A never ending tug of war

Fighting to look past the gloom,

Did I make the right decision

Or gave up the fight too soon.

Not wanting things to change

Optimistic of things that could be

Holding on to the future

Things only others could see.

So

In my dreams you will stay

Even on the cloudiest of nights,

That special part of me

Paving my way through with light.