Scared

I'm scared.

Scared you'll leave me the moment I tell you how I feel.

Scared that I'm just getting my hopes up for absolutely nothing,

Scared that you'll laugh at me once you know that I dream beautiful things, things involving you.

I know that worrying is pointless. It is useless and only makes people ill.

But, I cannot help but feel worried.

Worried that you'll forget I exist, worried that you'll abandon me...

Worried that you'll end up being an entirely different person from who I know right at this very second.

I love you. So much. More than I ever though possible.

But I fear that you won't feel the same way.

I just need to be patient, have hope, and have faith. I know that it will all be worth it eventually.

I know that you'll love me the way I love you.

I know that you'll always be there for me and will always stay in my sight.

I know that, in the end, the light can always overpower the darkness.

So, why am I worried then?

I'm worried because I have this deep, unforgiving fear that this is all in my head, and that things will never go the way I pray they do.

But that is lacking faith, isn't it?

So, I keep holding on and having hope. I am staying patient and having faith.

I will continue to do so.

Even if it hurts me in the end.