Scared

I'm scared

Scared I will end up falling for a guy

Who treats me like dirt from the landfill at the edge of town

The ones who crumple you up

Toss you to the floor like you're nothing

But their mistake of an essay they tried to write in school

I'm scared

Scared I will end up continuing a life that I've already bared so much to

That my future children will watch as the man I love

Thrashes me around as his little puppet

Teach them things that shouldn't be known

As they grow the muddy circles around their eyes from the show

I'm scared

Scared I will never be able to find the love that I deserve

That I will end up alone

Self-pitying myself till no one knows my name

The quiet one down the street with not a single thing

'Cause that's all my life has ever been

I'm scared

Scared of the unknown

The depths of his soul that could so easily lose control

Have havoc on my body and mind

Like a meteor crashing cross the line

His naked hands dig a hole

Straight in my heart, but also in our backyard

I'm scared

Scared of this ghost

The one I can see creeping up beside me

Who haunts me in my reality and dreams

Can whisper in my ear

As if I can't already feel his breath on my neck

The scorch of his taunts leave me in a want

A want not to stay, but a need to get away

To save my bones

Before I lose any more of my already frail self sown