Saved You... Save Me?

The pity,

The misery,

The hurt I see in your eyes,

You look at me

Like I’m a victim,

But parts of me

Are still alive in side,

I hate when you look at me

Like your sad,

That I’m the one living my life,

So I hate that look

Because I don’t need it from you,

I don’t want it,

I despise that look

Of shared empathy,

From the one person who believed me strong,

I am sick

Of being alone,

When I feel

I’ve done very little wrong,

I hurt you,

I’m sorry,

But I was thinking of you

The whole time,

And it pains me

To see,

That this heart of mine

Is finally at sea,

I’m losing love

In everything,

I’m losing love

In everyone,

I’m losing hope

In all of me.

So now I’m panicking,

And it’s getting harder to breathe,

I’m drowning,

I’m reaching the dark abyss,

The mysterious trenches of the sea,

I cannot see,

I am crashing into the voided parts of me,

They are clouding the surface,

Now the real me is hidden deep,

I was drowning purposely,

For you I could save,

But now I am drowning,

Because it is me you wouldn’t save.

Reaching my hand out,

But I feel nothing in this empty space,

Wishing I would just crash now,

But I’m still just slipping away,

Hoping you’d reach out,

But it’s already too late,

Even if I see your face or hear your voice,

My heart starts to panic,

And the inside of me freaks out,

Yet on the surface i don’t even break a tear,

But I wish I’d just run out of air,

But it’s like my body belongs here,

And now all I can do is fade out,

Until someone notices I’m still here reaching out,

Asking all those people I’ve once’s helped out,

To please save me now.

The empathy,

The sympathy,

The hurt I saw in your eyes,

Please, look at me

And see mine now,

Because parts of me

Are still alive in side,

I once hated when you looked at me

Like you were sad for me,

Like it was a shame I was still alive,

I questioned that look

Because I didn’t need it from you,

But in this moment,

That look is what I need from someone

Of shared empathy,

From at least one person that cares

Because I am sick of drowning,

And it feels too late for me now,

I felt I did very little wrong,

But doing nothing at all,

Was possibly the mistake leading to my fall,

You hurt me when you left me here drowning,

Are you sorry?

Are you thinking of me?

In this moment as pain seeps back in,

I was there to save you once,

But how can I now?

With this heart of mine

That’s finally at sea,

Because you didn’t try to reach me,

You didn’t save me,

When I was crying out to you,

Now,

I’ve lost love

In everything,

I’ve lost love

In everyone,

And I’ve lost hope

In all of me,

As my soul resides in this abyss,

The dark trenches of the sea,

That seems to never end,

At least not for me.

By: JadedAge (02-16-19 @ 10:00pm)