Routine

I still remember the day we met

I loved the way you smiled

And the freckles thrown across your cheeks

The way you said my name

It would make me weak in the knees

I remember living with you

Not sharing a space

But really living and experiencing life itself

Not having a worry in the world

Everything paused for you

I spent every second with you

Or thinking of being with you

And the seconds seemed everlasting

Until you took up every tick tock of my time

But I loved it

And as we spent more and more time together

I could feel you either pulling yourself from us

Or pushing me away from you

It kept me awake through the night

Wondering what I did to chase you away

I tried to call you

And you let it ring

I tried to text you

And you left it read

I just couldn’t seem to get you out of my head

The days turned into weeks

The week into months

And I slowly realized that frankly, you were done

You dropped me that quick

So you could go have fun

It took centuries

Or at least it seemed to me

To take the next step for myself

Because we never really miss the mistreatment

We miss the routine