Rott & Bloom
Self-Care Begins at Failure
Act I
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Motives & Regrets;
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Adrenaline in my heart, reckless i don't feel my steps.
NEXT
Meddling relentless with my life like twisted bets.
VEX
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why do i risk everything?
- If I'm lucky I'll lose.
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Sloth & Neglect;
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We both know I'm not the one you really want.
You make it obvious as if to taunt.
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why do i stay?
- Easier to pretend.
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Withdrawals & Relapse;
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CAN'T THINK
abuse who i choose,
CAN'T THINK
gone quick short fuse,
CAN'T THINK
i need my muse.
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why do i love to lose?
- Takes the pressure off
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Day Dreams & Romance;
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Refuse to do myself favours when it comes to you,
Looking at me and my body is numb.
Shouldn't stunt your shine so I'll savour mistakes i make in front of you,
Smiling and the script i practiced doesn't make it past my tongue.
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why do i sabotage myself?
- She deserves better.
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Act II
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Tweaking
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Do not panic door hinges are still intact.
You are just paranoid, family is not under attack.
I'm fine:
Manic stresses toyed with your mind.
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If i die before I wake that's okay...
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Trust Exercise
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Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, right?
Broken hearted, love sick and battered do not judge me tonight.
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If i gave you all the tools to hurt me... would you keep me safe...
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Excuses
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Guilt buzzing in my head like flies,
My life in that song i just want to be up right now.
Should be crying but my eyes run dry,
Been down too long and the night carries on.
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If I take another can i hold it...
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An Entertainer:
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Lack of wrinkles i can tell you frown often.
On days of strife i know i move lifeless.
Its a pleasure being your clown when your expression softens.
Life is short and laughs are priceless.
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If you knew how much i cared would you be afraid...
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Act III
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Nourish
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Can't change the changes, i accept whats mine.
Your ordeal much like mine, i sympathize.
Strange when i am numb i feel words cry.
Breaking seals in my ego, i harmonize.
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I need to smell the roses!
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Sirens
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Only tell me the things i want to hear.
Red flags were plentiful.
Introduce me to the rest of you, would you dear?
Smiling while lying left me resentful.
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I need to let go!
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Psalm 142
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All these vices ain't worth their prices but lost in a crisis.
Say friend could you show me a way?
Ain't no need to have me living lifeless.
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I need to ask for help!
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Cotton Candy
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Mysterious but your genius is showing,
Gorgeous how she doesn't even notice.
Public standards are bogus, miss you're glowing.
Ferocious how she loves herself closest.
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I need to be honest!
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ACT IV
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Conflicted these thoughts once made me piss.
Addicted to my self now it's bliss.
- Dancing with my demons and I love it.
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Low light affections without your touch.
Late night reflections I'm asking too much.
- Because I am a man that does not mean all I want is sex.
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Point out every problem. Persistently painting a path of pain.
"Realistic"
Radical pessimism referred to as rationality. Regrets of past mistakes.
"Impossible"
(i hate to see you die so slow)
- Mr. Cynic please get the fuck out of your own way.
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a sweet treat.
Solace devoid of coin coils and physique spoils,
a rare breed.
Turmoil nourishes unique seeds beneath the soil,
a kin bloom.
Teach me how you foil doom.
-Thank you.
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