Rose Tinted

Your game of hot and cold

leaves me tired and numb

I know this sunken feeling in my stomach

as I’ve felt it many times before

swept up in an idyllic day dream with you

until I am feeling comfortable

and perhaps even happy

I am shaken from my sleep

reminded it is, indeed, just a day dream

a cunning and cruel fantasy you created

to fulfil your temporary loneliness

your words, once sweet and delightful

now leave a bitter after taste in my mouth

I think of your touch, your soft kisses

what meaning do those have now

but just a heated moment

within cold lifeless sheets?

I feel sick in the naive thought

I believed this was something more.