Rollercoaster Ride
Bipolar takes over my life.
I’ll always be on this rollercoaster ride
Going up and down never side to side
These pills make me feel like my highs are so high
WOAH
Back down again
How long will it last this time?
My lows may not be as bad as they used to
Although I still use sleep to solve all my issues
I’m no where near the bottom I knew
I’ll forever have this problem
OH SHOOT
Traveling up again
I’m on top of the world
I keep on
go
go
going
So much motivation
Feels like I have control
Lasts longer than usual
I’m finally alive!
Make plans for the future
This ride is mine!
Damn, I thought I felt so fine
Yesterday was so good
What happened?
No warning signs?
Back on a low can’t help but wonder why
Start to cry when I realize that every time I am at this low I’m guaranteed a high
Which seems magical but believe me it’s not
Because every time I’m high and see all the possibilities in world from the horizon line
It’ll stop
Let me enjoy it for a second
Then
D
R
O
P
Drop
Down ridiculous oppression’s possession
I’m far gone
Another depression regression obsession session
I’m left with all these questions
No answers
I just have to accept them
The defeat ridiculed obtainable succession
Nothing I can do but ride with tension
Going with the flow isn’t in my prescription
I just need a tight hold
The bar is too thin
Rips from the cart
OH GOOD GOD
I’m flailing
Don’t start!!!
Don’t drop again!!
The gravity will strangle me
I CANT LET IT WIN
I detangle from my seat
Jump to the next cart in a huge faith leap
Safely under a new bar
Except now I can’t see
When I drop just how far is it?
How deep will I go into it?
AH!
IT CAME SO SUDDENLY
IM NOT READY
I HAD PLANS FOR THIS WEEK
I NEED TO BE STEADY
ENERGY STARTS DRAINING
I keep on forgetting
I never know when I will
and when I won’t
be me
About the Creator
Ecarg Nosive
I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.
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