"Smile!" "Don't look so mad all the time!"
"You're too pretty to be frowning like that."
This is what you say to me
As I walk past a group of you
Fearing for my life
With every quick, calculated step I take
"Hey, beautiful!" "Why you gotta look so mean?"
Phrases you say to me
In response to the cold, heartless expression
That you caused me to wear
Will they take my smile as an invitation?
An invitation to the party also known as my temple?
"It's your body, do what you want with it," they say
But what do you do with it once someone robs you of it?
I didn't ask for what you did to me that night
As my sleeping body awoke to the scene of an armed robbery
But there were no guns, knives, or masks involved
There was no money stolen, or expensive clothes and jewelry taken
There was no loud cry for help
Followed by the rescue of a heroic law enforcing officer
NO
There was just me
Pantsless, conscious-less, confused and scared
And then there was you
Reassuring me that this is what I'd wanted all along
Thank God you were there
A friend... a trusted FRIEND
Thank God you were there
To confirm, for me, my bodily desires
Thank God you were there
Because without your testosterone-bred intellingence
I may have missed out on what I never knew I needed
Is that it?
Me, a woman, can only function if a man desires me?
My body
Red with anger and striped with fear
Blue with loneliness and doused in hatred
Is only interpreted as your feeding ground
Your lustful eyes too powerful
Too loud, too domineering
Locked in on a target that was clearly off limits
And although conscience should have overtaken your gross desires
"Boys will be boys"
And if they want something, they take it
Did you ever imagine what else you'd be taking?
Sanity, Sanctity
Purity, Wholeness
Peace of mind, Trust
And a whole lot of soul
I still feel you when I close my eyes
I see you in every man who looks in my direction
And I trust no one
Why?
Because I trusted you
I trusted that you were a friend
I trusted that you cared about more than just yourself
And
As I always seem to be
I was wrong
And, as crazy as it sounds, I now have to deal with the darkness you've unleashed
8.20.17
About the Creator
Just Shade
I'm Shade! I don't usually let people see my writing, but after all I've been through and all that I am in the process of overcoming I am hoping that maybe someone can relate to something I say and that it can touch them in some way.
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