Repetition

Repetition,

my biggest fear.

Been through so much, I'm terrified to open up to those who genuinely care.

Got played so many times, I don't know the true meaning of loyalty or trust.

But yet,

I look into your eyes just to feel the familiar rush of reassurance that someday the time will come.

Please,

Don't hurt me.

I always say what's on my mind but I am so damn scared to do it this time...

Repetition

I don't want to mess up something that can potentially be a thing of all things I desire to have, fien to feel.

What can I say, you're like a drug.

All these years have gone by but you're still burning a fire inside and I just can't seem to tame these flames that cry out,

"Ignite me!"

I've never done that properly and maybe that's why the same things keep happening.

I guess I could never find someone who clearly hears me shouting,

"Respect me! Trust me! Caress me! Be with me and only me.

It's just those insecurities are not only those from the outside

But also moments from past times and broken tries.

The fear of repeating what I once did is what keeps me from the love that could be but just never is.

Repetition,

my biggest fear.