Relented

I fought for you

and you wanted the battle, but you knew I'd never win

because you just wanted to feel needed

you needed to feel wanted.

My love for you made you feel special

so you made me fight until I was drowning in my own blood and my body was an empty vessel

but you never let me win

you always left me right at the brink

of finishing the battle and ensuring that I sink

into my own head after you leave me

because you knew

that once you came back in a month or two

I would take you back with open arms

and forget about every fucking scar.

But this time is different,

I know my worth and this isn't it

I'm done fighting, I'm making peace with myself bit by bit

I'm done bleeding in a war that I will never conquer

You showed me that with you, it will never be forever.