Relation Shipwreck

What the hell was this?

Was this really love?

If so, where did the passion go?

Or was this something else?

Something undefined yet quite wrong

Why did we hold on to each other for so long?

Grasping for straws in the dark

I knew deep down

I knew it was doomed

Maybe from the beginning

Did I know then?

How could I?

I needed a friend

Friend became lover

Lover became partner

We were so young

Not even twenty one

At least not I

Some of it had to have been fun?

Yet my memories are tarnished

By all the hardships

Like mud on a windshield

I can't see through the muck

Toxic and destructive

Had nothing to do with bad luck

I emerge from the other side

With scars and terrorised

Innocence lost but not completely

I refuse to let this defeat me

For I can recall how I was before heading down this oh so slippery slope

Before I had given up hope

For a life of discovery and learning

It will forever be my yearning

Aries & Cancer attempting to go far

The odds were against us

It was written in the stars