Rage

Fuck you and your childish requests

You tell me you're scared

Of the things that you made me sit and face

As a child

As one who shouldn't have been left

Fuck you and the way you made me feel

In grade school

As my heart skipped a beat over a test

That you would barely smile and acknowledge

The one you promised to tape up

On the wall that you doused with sweat

From that man who beat you down

Fuck you and your words

That pierced me as a child

Wounded me with self doubt

And left me staring out into the clouds

During class time when I should've

Been aspiring to reach my own goals

No you left me staring at a sky

That laughed in my face

Because I sat there thinking of why

Why that man was still in my life

He didn't need to be

He wasn't running in my veins

But you kept him

And you let him stay

For 12 whole years of my life

Scared and locked away

In a storage room

Mentally, forever

Fuck you and the weaknesses you held

Because they shaped me

Into a pushover

I've become a shell

Because you made me