I Know I Can Be
It’s been so long, and I don’t know why
But I’m so confused
At how I feel
Walking in this crowd no one seeing
The monster I hide inside
And it confuses me that
No matter how hard I
Try I can’t see the light
That once showed me the way
(Chorus)
I try I try so hard to
Be the Angel I know I
Can be but the monster inside
Keeps hold of me and drags me back
To the dark and no matter what I do
I still hide what I really am
(End Chorus)
Why have you left me, god
Wasn’t I good enough
Why have you left me to fight?
This devil I call the monster inside
Alone why god won’t you help me
To be the angel I know I can be
So why does this darkness follow me
Keeping me away from the ones I love
Because of the monster I keep inside
(Chorus)
I try I try so hard to
Be the Angel I know
I can be but the monster inside
Keeps hold of me and drags me back
To the dark and no matter what I do
I still hide what I really am
(End Chorus)
I never know why
I never let the light
Shine on me but the monster
Inside locks me away in the darkest depths
I never wanted to hurt anyone
But I lost control
Then I heard the voice of
The Thing I fear the most
That monster inside
I wish to be free
But I realize
That the monster and I are one and
The same and its deep inside of me
I wish that I could
Be one with the monster inside
But I’m afraid that I’ll become the
Monster that everyone fears
(Chorus)
I try I try so hard to
Be the Angel I know
I can be but the monster drags me back
To the dark and no matter what I do
I still hide what I really am
(End Chorus)
I battle day after day
Time after time
And yet I still have
The monster inside
It’s not like I asked for this
I only want to be the Angel
I know I can be
(End song Chorus)
Why have I been left by the light?
If I knew then maybe I could
Find a way
To be one with the monster inside
(End song Chorus)
Human
I always wondered what
It would be like to know
Where I belong instead of the
Emptiness I feel now as I wander this endless hallway
Walking alone in a crowd of shadows
How come I’m the only one to not know?
What it’s like to be human
Why do I live in the shadows instead of the light?
(Chorus)
Why don’t I know?
Someone tell me
What it’s like to be human
What it’s like to stand in the light
And feel the rain on my hand
(End Chorus)
This feeling I have
The feeling of the unknown
Why do I always come back to this shell?
Of emotion when someone tries to
Love me, I retreat back into the
Emptiness I feel inside, because how can
I be loved when I’m not human
How can I feel when all I’ve known is fear?
I try to care I try to feel
But I keep coming up short on
This journey I’m taking.
Stars
Written in the stars
Are the memories that remind me of you
I have some Regrets
And I don't like the Man I became
I know that in doing the things I did, I lost the only woman I cared for
A Little bit darker, and colder my life has become since you’ve been gone
And you left, left with everything I hold dear
I tell myself that I’ll find Paradise
But in reality, I know that’s gone
I try to think of all the things I could have done
The memories of the stars
She kept my life bight
Every day and every night
Sometimes
I think you're still here
In the memories of the stars
I gave her love
And found happiness for it
But now there’s nothing
Somehow
In the memories of stars
Written in the stars are the memories I can't change
It breaks my Heart to think of what I could have done
I know that in the Morning, you won't be here like you did before
A Little Darker, and no longer my home
This place is cold tonight
I tell myself that I’ll find Paradise
But In reality, I know that’s gone
I try to think of all the things I could have done
The memories of the stars
She kept my life bright
Every day and every night
Sometimes
I think you're still here
In the memories of the stars
I gave her love
And I found happiness for it
But now there’s nothing
Somehow
In the memories of the stars
And I always hope for the day
When you come back Home
Because in this home
I’m always alone
In the memories of the stars
I loved you
You the only women I loved
But now you’re gone
And I’ll miss you forever
In the memories of the stars
I stay home
While I hope you're happy
Sometimes
I think you’re still here
In the memories of the stars
I gave her love
But now there’s nothing
Somehow
In the memories of the stars
Friends
We met in my darkest time
So, I didn’t get to show you the person I could have
Been without the regrets and fears that had been eating at me
From the inside and
To begin with I didn’t get you, and I bet you didn’t get me
But together we built a friendship that couldn’t be tamed
Or stopped together we made each other’s lives just that
Little bit better
Even if we’re far away I’ll always be there if you need me
Place obstacles in my way and they won’t slow me down
I care about your whereabouts
When I’m away remember what it takes to break these bonds
I swear to honour the rules we set
there’s nothing we can’t do when we’re together
I’ll be your sword if you shield me, and when it’s time
To say goodbye don’t cry we always have tomorrow
To laugh the day away.
Flaws
I spend almost every day
Thinking of the tides that brought me
To this place of dread
And I think of all my flaws
And how they affect the path I chose
Walking down the hallway that used to
Be full of love
Now all I see are the flaws that took me
Away in the tides
As I try to stay afloat
In the depths of dread
I used to laugh a lot, you know
My smile so bright
But now all I see is death
And I hide behind a mask
Making others happy
Knowing that I’ll never know
What it’s like to feel warm inside
Everything looks better when you can’t have it
But I always wanted to have a real smile
And not the one I hide behind
To keep others happy
Just isn’t enough and I try
I try to see if there’s a way
Out of the tides
In the depths of dread
I always stay afloat
But I drift further away each time
From the smile that looks so warm
As I freeze in the cold deaths of dread
And so, I put on my mask one last time keeping
A smile on my face as the deaths embrace me
Into the waters below.
Wings
I used to fly so high but
I let all the regrets and fears I have tear away
My wings trapping me on the ground
So now I lay here on the floor looking up at the sky
Watching as the birds fly around
And how I used to glide
But now I’m an angel without wings
How I lost my way I don’t know but
I like the pain something about it makes me feel alive
I don’t go looking for it but I like the way it feels
When my heart breaks and my wings burn
Just a little more, I guess I’m just one of those
People who knows that scars heal given time
And that’s what I like, when the pain fades away
And you start to feel again
That’s what I like about pain
And so I wait for the day my wings come back to me
But until then I will try to keep myself
Entertained but nothing works
Nothing is like the feeling of the air in my hair
As I soar so high, I lost count of how many
Times I had sleepless nights as the pain took hold
It makes me feel like I’m falling all over again
But then I remember the best thing about
The scars I hold and keep close
The feeling of them fading away once again
Until the day I remember them
To feel the gap my wings left on me
I just can’t wait for the day I fly above the clouds
And look down on the ground that has trapped me
And I’ll be smiling brightly once again.
Colour
So let me begin real slow, show you what
My true colours really are
So I may not be the brightest, but at least
I can say I’m the happiest, with the brightest smile
You’ll ever see, while you sit there wondering what you’ll be
I’ll be smiling as I watch my colours grow bigger and brighter than ever before
So let me know if I’m ever going too fast for you
I tend to do that a lot, by no fault of my own
I’m just that kind of guy
So let me spread my colours around the world
Let me add some life into this blue ball called Earth
Let me add some colour into the world
To make things bright for those who live in the dark
So let me add some colour into their lives
I walk down the hall everyone always wearing grey above their heads
But if they would open their eyes they would see
The colour of the world
And how colourful it really is
And the amazing places you could go to are endless
So as you watch the colours fade away
I’ll just smile all day long.
Friendship
I want you to know, my friend
That I’m sorry for what I did
The memories of that day haunt me still
The day started so well
Until the rain came in
And I’ll never find a friend like you again
When we parted ways I said let me help you
Get home in the storm but you just smiled and said
(Chorus)
I may be blind but I know my way around
See you when we meet again
It was a rainy day on a speeding highway
And a blind man in the middle of it all
(End chorus)
I remember waking up in the middle of the night
The sound of sirens echoing throughout the street
I opened my window to the sight of you lying
There in the middle of the highway
And now every time I close my eyes
I see you saying you forgive me
But how can you say that when I can’t forgive myself
(Chorus)
He said he may be blind but he knows his way around
It was a rainy day on a speeding highway
And a blind man in the middle of it all
(End Chorus)
You were my best friend I’ll never find
Someone like you
You helped me though the bad times
And laughed with me in the good
Every time I close my eyes I see you saying I’m not to blame
But how can you say that as I put you into the ground
You were my best friend and the day started out fine
(Chorus)
He said he may be blind but he know his way around
It was a rainy day on a speeding highway
And a blind man in the middle of it all
(End Chorus)
Every time I close my eyes you say you forgive me
But how can you say that
When I can’t forgive myself
How can you say I’m not to blame?
As I put you down into the ground
I remember the day you said it was us till the end
I wish I’d believed you
Because now it’s too late to take it back
(End song chorus)
It was a rainy day on a speeding highway
And a blind man in the middle of it
All
Thank You
I know I don’t say thank you as
Much as I should
But you already knew how deep my
Feelings go when I said hello
And every time we say goodbye
You take a piece of me as well
(Chorus)
You showed me love
And how to care about someone else
You showed me how to be brave
And took me out of the dark and into the light
(End chorus)
So, I say thank you now
So, you know that I will
Always be grateful for everything
You’ve done for me
If I could repay you it would take me years
Because your love
Can make me strong
When I think nothing will change
You make me change the way I feel
(Chorus)
You showed me love
And how to care about someone else
You showed me how to be brave
And took me out of the dark and into the light
(End chorus)
I thank you now for all the times
I let you down and said I never would
I thank you now so when you're down
You’ll know I’ll always be here for you
Rain or snow
Warm or cold
Hate me or not
I’ll be there for you to hold your hand in the way
You did for me
In the darkest times and
When I gave up on myself
You showed me the way
To find something worth fighting for
(Chorus)
You showed me love
And how to care about someone else
You showed me how to be brave
And took me out of the dark and into the light
(End chorus)
You showed me how to love
And how to care about someone else
You showed me how to be brave
And took me out of the dark and into the light
And I know that whenever I go
Away I’ll miss you
Thank you for standing with me for all
This time
(End song chorus)
Thank you for being by my side
In everything I do good or bad
You help me understand what to do
Thank you for finding me in myself
Darkness
You think you’ll be safe with
The flashlight in your hand
From the darkness of the night
And the sounds that echo from
Outside
You try to stop breathing heavily
Your flashlight wobbling uncontrollably
In the darkness of the night
(Chorus)
You think you’ll be safe
When the darkness comes for you with the flashlight
In your hand
You nervously look around in the hope of day
But it never comes
(End Chorus)
Darkness is something you can’t
Escape it’s everywhere
And anywhere you go
All it wants to do is
Come out and play with you tonight
All you can do is hide in
The middle of the night
And hope it doesn’t find you
in the darkness of the night
You look under the bed and wonder what’s under there
Then your fear overcomes you and you freeze
(Chorus)
You think you’ll be safe
When the darkness comes for you with the flashlight
In your hand
You nervously look around in the hope of day
(End Chorus)
Why everyone is scared of the darkness under the bed
Is a simple as one two three
It’s something that’ll last a lifetime
The darkness under the bed
You’ll never be able to sleep
Again when you find out about the darkness under the bed
That waits and waits 'til the light of your flashlight fades away
(Chorus)
You think you’ll be safe
When the darkness comes for you with the flashlight
In your hand
You nervously look around in the hope of day
(End Chorus)
(End song Chorus)
But look day is approaching
And you survived another night
From the darkness under your bed
'Til tonight, my lad, when we’ll see each other again
Goodbye
I don’t know what to do anymore
Every memory seems small to me
Ever since you went away
The memories keep spinning around my head
They won’t let me forget you
But I never really wanted to
And I want you to come back to me
So we can be who we were in my memories
(Chorus)
Why did we say goodbye
The pain I see in the memory
Of that day is too much to bear
I wish I hadn’t left you all alone
To be just a memory
(End Chorus)
Every time I close my
Eyes I relive the day
We said goodbye and I left you all alone
If I could relive any day it would be the day I meet you
It was and still is the best memory I have
Of my life
I wish I had never let myself walk away from
The pain the guilt
And it kills me inside every time I hear myself
Say goodbye
(Chorus)
Why did we say goodbye
The pain I see in the memory
Of that day is too much to bear
I wish I hadn’t left you all alone
To be just a memory
(End Chorus)
I know I lied to you when I said forever
And I hate the way I said goodbye
And whenever someone tries to help me heal and move on
I see the look in your eyes
The look that kills
Why did I say goodbye and leave you standing in the rain
I can’t undo what I did but given the
Chance I’ll make you see
That I still have a lot of love in me
And if you can forgive me
I would die a thousand times
To be the man you
Deserve to have by your side
But I know that can’t be
So I smile when I see you down the street happy
(End song chorus)
I know the pain won’t
Go away but I’m going
To try to move on
Because I'm finally saying goodbye
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