Paper Planes

They used to say that love takes your breath away

But it only takes your breath away when love dies.

Some nights I cry other times I can’t breathe,

I suffocate in knowledge that you don’t love me.

We used to say that we couldn’t believe it that we had

Found each other… but now I can’t believe it that we lost

Each other.

We made promises and pinky promises of safety and love.

I made promises of safety and love, you made

Lies.

Our love was like paper planes: they fly high, childish,

Swoop low, loop the loop, giddy and glide over grasses but

As soon as the rain comes, the plane tumbles down,

Soggy and useless. No more fun.

One time use.

Your words claw at my innocence and cast me away.

You left me forgotten with all the memories I wasn’t allowed to love.

The clock stopped ticking but my feet kept moving and

Moving and suddenly I am falling but I don’t fall…

I fly and you are there to hold my hand and it is okay.

Because even though I know you will never love

Me

The illusion is enough to keep me alive for today.