Painkillers at the Dinner Table
Dinner's Ready
Painkillers at the dinner table
Vicodin
My creepy touchy uncle
That I can only see once or twice a year
But when I do
It’s like clockwork
Every 4 hours
He tells me to
Crush it up in my orange juice
Shut down my sympathetic nervous system
No more fight or flight
Painkillers at the dinner table
Valium
My favorite cousin
It’s okay to have as many as I want
Because they look like powder pink m&ms
Which means they can’t hurt me
That much
Painkillers at the dinner table
Cyclobenzaprine is my oldest grandmother
Toss two back
As she tucks me into bed every night
Helping my limbs sink into the mattress
Whispering paralyzing thoughts into my ear
Painkillers at the dinner table
Tramadol
Is my step dad
The generic version of the
Parent I do like
A fat blue capsule
A petty imitation of what I really want
Which is
Hydrocodone
My absent mother
That throws me a 20 whenever I ask
A thin white body
That slips down my throat like ice
Sends shock waves through my body
The rattling of the bottle makes my mouth drool with delight
She is my savior
My greatest pleasure
And the reason for my disappearance
The dinner party
Thrown by none other
Than respected
Medical professionals
With prescription pads in their pockets
Like it’s a fucking potluck
But they don’t like to cook
So they order in
Little orange bottles
And they pass me the courses
Oxycontin
Percocet
Codeine
Dilaudid
Morphine
Painkillers at the dinner table
I am at the head of the feast
It’s thanksgiving
And I came with an empty stomach
And an insatiable hunger
For something only served
By every major pharmacy
Within spitting distance
Look through our window
Into our dining room
And all you would see
Is empty seats
And me
With
A fork
A knife
And my refillable plate of pills
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