Pain

This pain has been running thru my body for years

I've been told how strong I am I got u all fooled

Because showing my pain to the world is my worst fear

My past haunts me each and every day

There was times when I was going to end it all

My days just pass by I can't tell red from grey

I wanted to feel again so I started acting crazy

Fighting, smoking weed, drinking, and getting arrested

One day I slit my wrists a begged God to take me

They asked "why" I said it was my only option

They felt sorry for me a started treating me different

They sent me to this to this doctor who told me all my "problems"

It's crazy cause I just seen him on the news for cheating on his wife

He was in a suit smiling with no remorse

How could he be the judge of me when he doesn't even know wrong from right

This is for all of u who ever tried to judge me in my life

Told me I was nothing, came from nothing was a crazy girl lost in the system and every thing else

Then go home thinking what u do won't come to the light

This pain been running thru my veins for a minute

15 years of foster care didn't help me I can tell you that

I tried to hold this pain in but I couldn't

To be continued...