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I wake up

Eyes crusted over with dreams I wished I lived in

Rub them away and I immediately

Start to listen

The whispers are seldom behind these four walls

Until I check my phone to open up that portal

The whispers are now talking as I make my way upstairs

I check memories on Timehop and wish I was there

Years ago when we got along

Our differences didn’t care

I was so wrong

Toxicity fills the air

I walk outside and they’re finally loud yells

I hate you for you is what they tell

We never loved you you were just kind of there

Everything I thought I knew was true,

should have followed my own clues

My anxiety is taunting but it has never failed me once

I get further in town and passing people scream what was

My fathers death is what kept me intertwined with you

Cause you sympathized

Then started telling lies that you loved me enough

I’m confused

Common interests weren’t a thing between us

You loved me more when I was straight and not falling in love

When I started to distance myself because of the fake friendship we made up

You took it out on me like your best friend didn’t do the same stuff

Screams are curdling I can’t make out what they say

My ears are hurting

I just want to get away

My old friends deserted me long before I took a step back

Don’t act like you’ve earned respect from me just because you were a part of my past

The city is singing softly now

“Get out while you can or we’ll slice your heart somehow”

I was thinking to myself

Haven’t you done that already

But each time I come back it seems they’re armed with a new machete

I want to leave and let them forget me

Might delete to help me get ready

To leave forever and forget the ones who make it necessary

The singing has gone silent

I know they’re out to get me

I’m waiting for the violence

It’s already almost been deadly

Now it’s laughter I hear in the moment

No one cares that they left me

Fifteen years of creating opponents

Who can be the first to upset me?

The silence shatters

My ear drums are plastered

Beating bum dum

My hearts beating faster

As long as she’s in our town we’ll give her what she asked for

Death, Decaying

Oh what a disaster!!!!

Took her own life because she thought she didn’t matter!!!

She was so loved please tell God that pastor!!!

Don’t let her end up in hell!!!

They all screamed in laughter

Don’t let her do well!!!

They got together after

Said “I didn’t like her but I didn’t want her to die”

Yet death started each day I opened my eyes

Actions speak louder than words and you never acted

So here I lay,

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