Here and now—
Tough
Perhaps more so than you think
Calming the constant swirling inside
What if? What if? What if?
Past, future, present
Present
Here and now—
Yet it persists, what will happen what is to be?
Like a mosquito buzzing in your ear
Teeth clench — telling yourself to stop
Here and now—
I am where I need to be
In this moment,
It’s like walking on wobbling legs
On ice that is starting to crack
Heart pulsing in your ears
Here and now—
I cannot change what has been done
But what will become,
Feeling as if I’m stepping off a cliff
Is the bungee cord attached?
Will I fall or will I fly?
It makes me want to break down and cry
Here and now—.
My guts are in my throat
They don’t belong there
It feels wrong
Everything has been bottled up,
Much too long
Here and now—
Baby steps
But I fear—is it far too late?
Should I resign to my fate?
The bouncing balls they need to stop
It is distressing to watch them drop
Wanting to run and pick them all up
Here and now—
It’s exhausting to be in the present
When the past hurts so much
Like an anchor it’s weighing me down
Here and now—
Finding a mantra
Repeating it slow
Que Sera Sera
The past is the past
The future is yet to be
I am here in this moment
Where I am meant to be?
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