Omega

If there were ever an us,

my heart would sing with joy and relief…

Fears falling like weighted chains on barren cracked earth,

Round, full, and exciting as your next kiss…

Because I have lived in the fear of inevitable for so long,

That the hope of you, faded from my mind…

Memories that thundered through my skull of you and I,

Are all but cheshire cat smiles…

Teeth chattering in the dark,

Until all I can remember is the feeling

Intangible ghosts floating across the the freeway,

Dim and wain in the foresight, of wicked reality…

You are not mine, the mantra rapid fire repeating in my heart…

Not…

Not…

Not mine…

But I remember the feeling of you deep in my bones,

Flesh rending heat of your lovers mark…

You bit too deep, the wound festering between the muscle and the sinew of my life…

I live between the beats of forgotten hearts…

When the screams trail off broken souls, I lie awake in false hope,

That maybe today is the day,

When love wins out against the pragmatic reality we set…

Every glance in your direction, begs me home…

Reality is not I,

And so I breathe in molten fire,

Releasing the spell that binds,

The this and that of unrequited love…

I step forward

And move on…

To the someday that should have been…