Numb to Love

I simply won’t give up on love

Love is painful, nerve racking, head aching

But love is never endless

I've given my all to those that choose to play with my heart.

I’ve spoken to myself in the darkness letting myself know that it’s okay to feel numb.

And I ignore that person but let her slip in every time i let my mind be alone with silents.

Silence is a burden to me.

It allows me to think about the bad and the good but the bad always out do the good.

why should I love when all im doing is hearting myself

It’s the kiss of death

That kills me.

It’s the work of lips that lie to me

It’s the spoken melodies that lowers me in “i love you & would not hurt you”

“I’m different”

Welp, I’m different too...

As much time I’ve been alone in my head and the time i experience with man that torn me and broke me.

I had time to build and eat what you throw out and what you can put up with.

I have time to do everything you can & can’t do.

I’m numb to a lot of things.

Emotionless is what im afraid of because it’s within me

It’s a kiss of emotions that brings me alive.

That lets me know I’m still human

So don’t tell me lies that can not be eaten because I will not believe it

I’m only still with you to feel.

I’m only still with you to feel human.