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November Mornings

Thoughts that I am getting rid of.

By Altair EPublished 6 years ago 1 min read
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5pm

Sadness entered my mind unable to void it.

I am fine throughout the day when I am distracted by things whether it be people or even any type of noise.

But sadness hits me hard when I am alone especially during the day. It is nearly 5 pm and I am sad.

I know that everything that happened is beyond my control but it feels as though I could’ve been the one to prevent stuff to happen.

I feel like that daily. I think the ways that this all could have been different.

The fact that I wish that you were still here is the most devastating part because I know you cannot come back

I am constantly wishing for things to be how they once were before. Now I am stuck unable to move. I am lost.

I was always lost but now it feels like I am lost in a way that will never have a destination.

Days go by when I distract myself to the point where I still do not believe that this is all real.

I am sure that one day I will be happy but those days are far away, I'm sure.

I am envious of people who have things that I no longer have.

I know that its not good to look at other people’s lives but I just cannot help it.

I feel as though these people are flaunting the things that I no longer have. I am in awe everyday.

I look at what other's have everyday, taking it for granted like I once did.

I am envious of those people. I want nothing more than to go back to where my life was before it took the rails.

My heart stops beating for several moments throughout the day just to be accompanied by a racing heart beat trying to catch up to my breath.

I know that I am living, I can hear my heart beat. I just wish I couldn't hear it anymore.

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thoughts become things

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